Recently, a friend of mine reminded me of the moment in my life when I struggled with the decision to hold onto my marriage or to let go.
To me, that is such a distant memory...
She, unfortunately, recollected it because she is experiencing a very similar moment in her life... Actually, a few of my friends are.
Now, I'm not an advocate for divorce. I don't wish it upon anyone.
Looking back, I was crushed. It took a long while to rebound... to grow strong...to rebuild.
Life's hard enough as it is, but add divorce, it's one of the most humiliating, humbling processes life offers.
Yet, somehow, I made it. I truly believe that is because I have an amazing network of family & friends, that reminded me to have faith, hope, love and focus even when it did not seem possible. To them, I say thank you.
On the same evening my friend reminded me of that fragile & complex moment in my life, I came upon this passage while reading the
Mockingjay (the third book in the Hunger Games trilogy).
I re-read it a few times. The words are so true. They not only apply to the book and it's story, but also to life and it's reality.
I remembered, at that time, that a glimpse of hope seemed unreal. I had no idea what lied ahead and/or if things could ever be good again. All I knew was that I had to keep it together for JR & me...
I'm in a new season of life, in which those recalled moments are fragmented storms that sometimes delicately dance in my head to remind me to appreciate the now... because, it is good. :) I'm happy, focused and in control. Sometimes, I feel like
Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman when she says, "I say who, I say when and I say how much." Ok
, maybe not exactly like her in that movie, but you know... I have that ability to say that regarding most aspects of my life.
Life will always have it's challenges. Those losses may seem so grand, but, I can honestly say that through the thick & thin of it all... "it can be good again."
-cw
